:D It’s that time of year again.
Actually, it’s Sunday evening and technically it’s already over.
BUT.
I’ll just say this.
I love being gay.
I love it.
And even though it’s only a fraction of a fraction of who I am.
I can’t help but feel defined by it during the hours when I’m in the middle of Castro or Civic Center with hundreds of bodies pressed against me.
And a few thousand people clouding the streets.
It’s unbelievably liberating to be in the presence of so many people who have the same thing in common. Every year I feel like it brings out the best in me. I suppose it’s because I feel so at peace. Everyone loves everyone during pride. Everyone is your brother or your sister. Their pain is your pain. Their struggle is your struggle. And during these two days out of the year, it’s like we’re free.
We’re the majority.
I was actually in the position to say “Haha. Look at the random awkward straight people.”
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Yesterday one of my friends said the coolest thing ever to me.
Even though I wasn’t quite clear-minded at the time I remember it really well. xD
She came over, sat next to me, and told me “I love you, Oli. I just wanted to tell you because I’ve got a feeling you don’t hear it enough.”
I don’t know why it impacted me so much.
But it really, really did.
And I just wanted to say thank you.
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I’ve got a hard case of tough to beat
Subsequent to the need for transparency
We’re talking insanity here
Not that playground brand hypocrisy
There’s a fleeting need that leads to anxiety
Eyes filter it like it’s a lens to view the world through
And slabs of concrete are building our walls
Instead of demystifying our secret troubles
Instead of deconstructing our secrets that matter far too much to the individual
I am human, therefore I am defective.
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I know why I’m getting irritated with my writing.
It sounds like hoity-toity philosophical nonsense.
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I’m a little bit embarrassed right now.