“As a woman I have no country. As a woman my country is the whole world.”

Man, I want to go on vacation.

D:

Just another comparison

Goddamn.

I like Spanish.

I really, really do. lol.

Promise to myself

Okay, self.

Today is Monday June 15th 2009

I’m going to start recording my physical progress week to week.
Just by taking a body snapshot.

Every monday for the next six months I’m going to do this.
Because as of Monday June 22nd, I am beginning my EMT training as well as a more intense exercise program and diet.

Just in case I forgot.

Here is a comparison from 2006 to 2009.

Excitement!

A week from now I will be in uniform!
LKHDGKJDH!!!!!!!!!

Bones

This poem was shown to me recently, and I absolutely fell in love with it.

Bones

Said Mr. Smith, “I really cannot
Tell you, Dr. Jones—
The most peculiar pain I’m in—
I think it’s in my bones.”

Said Dr. Jones, “Oh, Mr. Smith,
That’s nothing. Without doubt
We have a simple cure for that;
It is to take them out.”

He laid forthwith poor Mr. Smith
Close-clamped upon the table,
And, cold as stone, took out his bones
As fast as he was able.

Smith said, “Thank you, thank you, thank you,”
And wished him a good-day;
And with his parcel ‘neath his arm
He slowly moved away.

By Walter de la Mare

HOLY CHRIST IN HEAVEN.

Death Cab For Cutie.
Is playing in LA with the Los Angeles Philharmonic July 5th.

BUT WAIT.
WHO ELSE IS AT THE CONCERT?

TEGAN AND SARA?
AND?
THE NEW PORNOGRAPHERS!!!!!!

IN ONE BUILDING?!?!
TOGETHER?!?!?!?!

-dies-

Nobody wanna see us together, but it don’t matter, no.

Akon- Don’t Matter.
xD

I’m on that crazy roller-coaster called love.

My girlfriend ( I hate that word now.) is so fucking cute.
She made me this playlist of all the songs that reminded her of us and played it for me sometime last week.
And I’ve been periodically “AWW”ing over it since.
I don’t think anyone has ever done something as simple and wonderful for me as that.

God, my life is magically awesome from time to time.

And because I like to post pictures from time to time~
Here is a recent one of the two of us.
Hopeeefully she won’t mind.

Aren’t we cute?
Yes. We are.
She makes me look better, I swear.

In other news, the picture was taken on Easter.
That fact is only important because it was the day I swore to myself that I would never step foot in a Catholic church ever again.
I just cannot even explain the feeling I get after I leave.
Words that come close to describing it are: Depression, guilt, fear, and anxiety.
It’s just not healthy.

And the effect has been so amplified after attending just a couple pagan women’s circles in Oakland.
And discussing all aspects of religion and spirituality in my class.
It’s just too much for me now.

And Meredith (I’ll just use her name in leu of the “g” word.) has been such an excellent help in my development and own understanding of my spiritual side. Never pushing any kind of agenda on me, and never narrow minded about where I was coming from as far as my own personal religious background.

My growth in this area as of late has made me so much more at peace with myself.
Don’t get me wrong, though. I’m not saying religion changed me. Because I still think a lot of that shit is bunk. I’m saying tapping into my spirituality and my own energy has really changed me.

And man, I never thought I’d ever be saying anything like this is my life, but seriously-

Blessed Be, everyone.

I am. Really. Angry.

I hate people.
I really do.

And I especially hate people who like fucking up something nice you had planned.
Just because they’re jealous.

Hey you.
Yeah, you.
Fuck you.

How You Survived The War

I think it’s about damn time I make a decent update.

First.
That new girl I was talking about is completely out of the picture.
Second.
She’s completely out of the picture. xD

Thank you. For producing so many crazy fucking women. Whoever you are.
Your sense of humor is great.

Anyway.
I’ve been listening to a lot of The Weepies, and a LOT of the Decemberists’ new album “The Hazards of Love”.
Which is amazing.
(By the way.)
I haven’t pinpointed my favorites yet. But I’m sure I’ll get around to that soon.

And as usual, the music I’m listening to is a good reflection on how I’m feeling lately.
And lately, let me tell you.
I’m not sure how I feel most of the time.

I’m in one of those periods where it’s really hard to get me honestly excited about something.
Where it’s even harder to surprise me.

I just feel like curling into a ball most of the day. Not in a depressing way. Just in an “I don’t care enough to do much else.” kind of way?
I don’t feel sad. I dunno. Just apathetic.

At least that’s how I felt until a few days ago. xD

Something really surprising happened recently.
And I don’t think I’m going to go into detail about it.
But it made me happy. It surprised me.
And I like how it’s making me feel.
I’m just going to have to wait and see how it plays out, though.
It’s really nice, but at the same time I’m a little uncertain.
But I’m not overanalyzing it!
xD I’m not. And that’s probably the best accomplishment I’ve made in a long long time.

Aaaaand. That’s all I really have to say?
So this turned out to be a kind of mediocre update.
But. Meh.
It’s how I roll sometimes.

:] Hope everyone is well.